Need a New Name

March 5th, 2010

When I started this blog (could it really be almost 5 years ago now?) it was intended to promote my sponsors (and myself, in the hopes of getting more sponsors to promote). It made sense at the time to title my blog with my name. Now that my professional athlete days are behind me, using my name just has too much of a self-promotional, Facebookish ring to it. It is time for a new name.

I’ve been trying for a long time to think of a new name and I’m coming up almost empty. So I thought I would ask y’all for some ideas, or to vote on the few I have come up with. Below is a brainstormed list of some words, phrases, and ideas that could be combined in a variety of ways to make up a new name. I’m leaning towards the first one listed, but I’m open to any and all suggestions. I’m planning to keep the tagline, “Mountain Biking My Way in to Motherhood,” if that helps at all.

Keeping in mind: I love to mountain bike. I love playing in the mountains in every season. McKenna is pretty much the center of my world right now. As a parent and a human being, I believe in peaceful/nurturing/environmentally-conscious/natural/responsive/intuitive/organic/heart-felt care for my daughter and the world. I love a lot of other things too (reading, cooking, my husband…) but I’m also looking for a concise and short blog name!

TheMamaTrail
SimplyEpic
TheMotherhoodMountain
Flagstaff
Mountains
Mama
Epic
Ride
Organic
Live
Motherhood
Arizona
Natural
Peaceful

Email me your suggestions or votes, to dara marks at yahoo dot com

Hot Button Topics

February 20th, 2010

In general I don’t like to ruffle feathers. I pretty much have an opinion on everything ;) but putting it on my blog is something I mostly stay away from. But, seeing as to how I am the one who brought the subject up, it is now “out there” so I might as well go with it.

I received the below comment on my post about Coxsackievirus. I can tell that the author cares passionately about children and their health and only has everyone’s best interest at heart. So do I. Which is why I am posting it in its entirety, followed by my thoughts on each part of it.

Hello,
I’m a complete stranger who just found your blog while googling the Mt. Taylor quad results. Congrats on the great time! I just did the snowshoe portion, and I can’t wait to go back next year. I thought I might pick up some training tips, but was moved by this post to comment.
As a pediatrics resident, I just want to say how sad (and frustrated) it makes me that you choose not to vaccinate your children. Yes, illness and pathology are a common and “sucky” part of life. But the diseases we vaccinate against can have serious side effects, and it’s hard for us to conceive of how many children (and adults) they have killed in the past, now that the majority of children receive routine immunizations.
Your children are protected against potentially serious illnesses by the people who choose to vaccinate their children. If your children should become ill with one of these illnesses, it’s true that they may get over it without any severe sequelae. But they are putting at risk other children who are unable to be vaccinated because they are immunocompromised either due to an inherited disorder or chemotherapy. Have you ever seen a 7 year old cancer patient with shingles? That REALLY sucks.
I saw a previously perfectly healthy 17 year old girl die within 24 hours after symptoms began from the H1N1 flu virus this year–she became brain dead. Did you know that chickenpox can be a very serious disease if you catch it as a teenager or pregnant woman? By not vaccinating your daughter against rubella, she runs the risk of catching a “slight cold” during her pregnancy and having a child born with congenital rubella syndrome. Rotavirus can cause severe dehydration (and expensive medical bills for hospitalizations); it kills millions of children each year in developing countries.
If there was a vaccine against coxsackivirus (which normally causes fairly innocuous hand-foot-mouth syndrome), I would vaccinate my children with it to prevent the rare but devastating complication of myocarditis and heart failure that coxsacki can cause. And unfortunately, any immunity your daughter may gain after a bout with coxsackivirus won’t protect her at all from other viruses, such as measles, flu, mumps, herpes virus, etc.
I urge you to discuss this issue with your pediatrician or other medical professional you trust. There are many people out there who will support your decision not to vaccinate, but as someone who has dedicated my professional life to caring for children, I really want you to be fully informed on this issue. I want your children, and as many children as possible, to grow up happy, healthy, and able to train hard for the Mount Taylor Quad! Thanks for listening, and best of luck for the future.
Sincerely,
Katy Goggin

Vaccinations truly are the hot-button parenting topic of our times. I think the most important point I want to make is that there is no right/simple/easy answer. There are many things to consider and ultimately the decision lies with each individual family. It is a decision that I took very seriously, and as you will see below I actually started on a modified vaccination schedule for McKenna before deciding that was the wrong path for us. Katy makes many very important points; what follows are my counter-points:

But the diseases we vaccinate against can have serious side effects, and it’s hard for us to conceive of how many children (and adults) they have killed in the past, now that the majority of children receive routine immunizations.

You are absolutely right that it is due to vaccinations that many lives have been saved. Especially when you consider something like Polio. Back in the 40s and 50s polio killed and paralyzed a huge number of people. It was an epidemic, and we owe it to vaccinations for halting that epidemic. However, many of the diseases that are currently being vaccinated against are far from epidemics. Some (like Polio) “are now so rare in the US that an unvaccinated child has no quantifiable risk of catching them, and therefore no quantifiable chance of spreading them to other children.” (quoted from the July-August 2009 Mothering Magazine article “Vaccine Debate”) Most of the others are common illnesses that, although some can have serious side effects, are treatable through medical interventions. Keep reading for more on that later… Similar to Dr Howard Morningstar, I am concerned about “the potential overall effect on the immune system of multiple vaccines” and want to “save the emergency measures, like mass vaccinations, for true emergencies.” (also quoted from the above article)

Your children are protected against potentially serious illnesses by the people who choose to vaccinate their children. If your children should become ill with one of these illnesses, it’s true that they may get over it without any severe sequelae. But they are putting at risk other children who are unable to be vaccinated because they are immunocompromised either due to an inherited disorder or chemotherapy. Have you ever seen a 7 year old cancer patient with shingles? That REALLY sucks.

I’m sure it does, and the last thing I want is to cause any one else injury or pain. However, an immunocompromised person is also at great risk from things like the common cold, which is far far more prevalent than the diseases being vaccinated against. As a socially responsible person, I do my best to practice good hygiene (for both me and my daughter) and stay home when ill to avoid spreading any virus we may catch, but my primary responsibility lies in keeping my daughter healthy and safe. Which of course brings me to the biggest anti-vaccine argument: I do not trust in the safety of vaccines (nor in the motivations of the pharmaceutical industry). There are concrete examples of “bad batches” of vaccinations causing brain damage, and we are currently facing an epidemic of non-communicable diseases that have no explanation (such as: asthma, allergies, autism, childhood leukemia, arthritis, and many more…). Most people would say that it is likely these have some sort of environmental origin. I am by no means saying definitively that vaccines cause these diseases. But it would be irresponsible for anyone to definitively say that they don’t. No one knows for sure one way or the other. What I do know for sure is this: in every aspect of my life I do my best to reduce my family’s exposure to toxic substances. Toxic substances can bring no good to our health, and we have no way of knowing exactly what ill-effects they may bring. In our society it is impossible to avoid chemicals 100%, but to intentionally main-line them through the great number of vaccinations that the AAP wants us to seems crazy to me. Vaccines are full of toxic substances such as aluminum, mercury, formaldehyde, 2-phenoxyethanol, and sodium deoxycholate. I truly hope that in 5, 10, 15 years time we don’t see an epidemic of 15 year olds all getting mysterious auto-immune (or other) chronic diseases, but we have no precedent or long term research on the number of vaccinations currently being administered to prove their safety. The vaccinations given in the past (such as the Polio example) were A) few in number, B) generally given to non-infants therefore to people whose body’s were larger and more able to tolerate the amount of chemical being injected, and C) given just one dose, usually, rather than the 4-5 doses currently being administered for most vaccines. I could go on about this point, but in the interest of space, moving on…

I saw a previously perfectly healthy 17 year old girl die within 24 hours after symptoms began from the H1N1 flu virus this year–she became brain dead.

Many perfectly healthy children get vaccinations and end up with chronic health problems. A friend of mine’s brother reacted to the pertussis vaccine. 30 years later he has the mind of a 7 year old. We could all quote examples from both sides of the argument. Therein lies the problem…it is not an easy answer.

Did you know that chickenpox can be a very serious disease if you catch it as a teenager or pregnant woman?

Chickenpox used to be a common childhood illness, virtually harmless other than making someone feel very sick. In our over-vaccinated, disease-fearing society, we aren’t getting exposed at young ages, delaying the possibility of getting the disease until a time when our weak immune systems have severe reactions.

By not vaccinating your daughter against rubella, she runs the risk of catching a “slight cold” during her pregnancy and having a child born with congenital rubella syndrome.

In 25 years, my daughter will have the opportunity to make the decision for herself if she wants to get vaccinated against rubella to protect against this. By then she will weigh 100 lbs more than she does now and will be significantly less likely to have an adverse reaction. It will be her choice.

Rotavirus can cause severe dehydration (and expensive medical bills for hospitalizations); it kills millions of children each year in developing countries.

Fortunately dehydration is treatable with IV. McKenna may actually have had rotavirus recently; many many of the kids around here recently went through a full week of diarrhea, and rotavirus is such a common virus it may have been the culprit. Further, the rotavirus vaccine is extremely new. A friend of mine (who happens to be an RN) was surprised that there is a vaccine for it; there was no vaccine for it when her 5- and 6- year old kids were babies. They just didn’t worry about it. Now that there is a vaccine, we are worried about it?

I want your children, and as many children as possible, to grow up happy, healthy, and able to train hard for the Mount Taylor Quad!

We definitely want the same thing!

Like I said above, I didn’t come to this decision easily. To begin with, I had to look at my own history. When I was 5 I had a minor reaction to the Tetnus vaccine (and bear in mind that when I was a kid we were only given a few vaccines and at older ages than they do them now). When I was 15 and went in for the booster, my mom told the doctor about my reaction. They chalked it up to the vaccine being a horse serum, and they were now using a human serum, so we went forward with the shot. Within a few hours I was having a major reaction, vomiting, covered in a hot red rash. This kind of escalation of reaction with subsequent shots is very common, and with the current vaccine schedules children receive 3-5 shots before they are considered vaccinated for that illness.

Then I began talking to a lot of people, with differing views, about why they made their decision. I read a lot, including Dr Sears’ The Vaccine Book. I really feel that book puts forth a balanced viewpoint. After reading it, I decided to go forward with vaccinating McKenna, on a very modified scheduled. I had planned to get her only 1 or 2 shots at a time (since overloading the system is one of the biggest concerns with vaccines). I began at 2 months with DTaP. All seemed fine. At 3 months she received PC and Hib. That night she reacted. I have never been so terrified in my life. I thought surely I had just done irreversible damage to my precious infant. I knew right away that I was not proceeding further with vaccinations, especially given that reactions escalate with subsequent shots. McKenna now shows no signs of having a vaccine-injury, but I will never know if it isn’t possible that someday in the future she may have some condition develop that may have been caused by one of those two vaccines.

Two more points and then I’ll shush, I promise. It would be well worth anyone’s time to read Dr. Richard Moskowitz’s article Vaccination: A Sacrament of Modern Medicine. If you don’t feel like reading the whole thing, at least read the section about Measles. Truly fascinating.

The last point I want to make is that the AAP and the pharmaceutical companies do things that make many people not trust them and therefore question *all* vaccinations. My case in point is the Hep B vaccine. Hep B is a disease that is transmitted either through blood or semen; and yet the AAP guidelines have newborn babies, still in the hospital, some weighing just 6 pounds, just 24 hours old, receiving this vaccination. I can not imagine a less crucial vaccination to receive at birth. A newborn baby’s body simply is not equipped to deal with that. Fortunately, since we birthed McKenna at home, we did not have to deal with refusing this vaccination, but the vast majority of new parents are confronted with being told that their brand new baby is about to receive a vaccination. But most people don’t question authority, and having a newborn is overwhelming and leaves the parents in a very vulnerable state. Taking advantage of parents like this makes it very difficult to trust the guidelines set by the AAP for the rest of the vaccination schedule.

Clearly I would be devastated if McKenna got an illness that led to a serious situation. But ultimately our decision came down to this:
I am more afraid of what might happen from a vaccine than I am of what might happen if McKenna were to get an illness. Most side effects of illnesses are treatable. Most side effects of vaccines are not. If she got a vaccine injury, it would be something that I did to her. And I just don’t know that I could live with that.

Mt Taylor Quadrathlon, 2010

February 14th, 2010

The 2010 Mt Taylor Quadrathlon is in the books and I’m a bit sore! Steve Ilg and I made a strong team, and ended up winning the male/female Pairs division, finishing 2nd among all the Pairs, and 3rd among all the Teams (teams consist of either 3 or 4 people). Not too shabby for a couple of “new” parents who survive on broken sleep and limited time to train! Our total time was 4:22, you can find the complete results with all the splits here. Our team name was A(nother) Fair Pair of Mountain Yoginis, but I guess it was too long because they left out the word Yoginis, making for a rather odd sounding team name.

Last year I raced this race as the cyclist on a 4-woman team. Compared to last year, there was a lot of headwind on the bike up, which slowed me down by a lot. Ok, so maybe all 9 and a half minutes can’t be blamed on the wind…some of that may have been due to a slightly slower Dara. But across the board it looked to me like most people were about 7 minutes slower than their last year’s time, so I’m not too horrified. The run this year was snow packed from the get-go; I don’t have a run time to compare to last year, but I can say that the run seriously kicked my ass. It was so brutal I couldn’t believe it. I am embarrassed to say that I did walk in the last mile a few times. Fortunately, my time was relatively competitive, but I’m still disappointed in having to walk during a run race. Steve put in an awesome ski and snowshoe: among all the pairs teams he had the fastest ski (both up and down) and the second fastest snowshoe (both up and down). Actually his ski down was wicked fast: 13:57 which looks to me like the 3rd fastest ski down in the whole race! He had set up a sweet waiting area in the run to ski transition, complete with a tent and sleeping bag, and the tent door facing towards the sun so it was toasty warm. While I was waiting for him before my run back down the mountain I laid down in the tent and thought to myself, I really could just fall asleep here for a couple hours! I didn’t fall asleep, but I did somehow decide to go pee at the very moment Steve was finishing his ski and looking for me in the transition. Oops. Well, I don’t think it really lost us any significant time, but it sure was a silly thing for me to do! Maybe that motivated me to run really fast downhill, but either way I am much more proud of my downhill times than I am of my uphill times, and given the headwind that we had slowing us down on the way up, I rode the downhill bike section about 4 and a half minutes faster this year than last year. Coming down the first 3 miles of the descent my bike got the “shimmies” which I’ve never had on my Titus before. I figure it started happening right as I was hitting my top speed which turned out to be 44.8 miles per hour. Sweet! I did have to slow down at that point though. I think the college guy I was riding with was probably pretty happy I slowed down so he didn’t have to see some girl wreck herself all over the pavement.

After the race I got cramps in the weirdest places on my body…I don’t think I have ever felt pains in the body parts that I was feeling it in. I momentarily thought about calling Troy to pick me up from the finish because I didn’t think I could ride my bike the 15 minutes back to the hotel, but after I pedaled for a few minutes things started to loosen up and I made it back without incident.

Meanwhile Troy, McKenna, and Sazi had a fun day exploring the El Malpais state park, hiking around and playing. After I got back to the hotel we terrorized another restaurant for dinner and headed over to the awards ceremony. McKenna left her mark on 3 restaurants in Grants, meaning that we left some pretty big tips around town too! For such a tiny person she sure does have a big voice. She must have her mama’s lungs…

While I was sitting in the tent after my uphill run, I swore to myself that I would NOT come back to race again next year because it simply hurts too much. Less than 24 hours after the race Troy and I were already talking about next year as if we will be back. Funny how even a short amount of time erases the pain memory. 2011? We’ll see. I make no promises either way.

Coxsackievirus is…

February 5th, 2010

…why McKenna has been so incredibly miserable for the last 4 days, why we have gotten virtually no sleep, why she has been nearly inconsolable, why she wouldn’t eat (except for non-stop nursing), and why she had a fever of well over 103. Evidently it gave her ulcers on her tonsils because she has the hand/foot/mouth disease syndrome of the virus. But tonight she is clearly on the mend, and I have high hopes that we will see her back to her normal, sassy, spunky, silly, and sweet self again very soon! Read all about the nastiness here. It is interesting though, because for as sick as she has been and as difficult as it has made life for us, I realized that if they offered a vaccine for this virus I would not get it, even having gone through it. Just like we aren’t vaxing for all the other common childhood illnesses (chickenpox, rotovirus, MMR, to name just a few) because (for one thing) we see illness and pathology as a normal, albeit sucky, part of life. This experience has really just reaffirmed my convictions, and hopefully strengthened McKenna’s immune system function that much more.

While she was sick one of the only things that we have been able to do to help her stay calm is watch some select videos. We have the Sesame Street Old School 1974-1979 video, which she absolutely loves, and she has really enjoyed Winnie the Pooh (thanks goes to LW for Winnie the Pooh as well as many other videos in our collection). We started to watch Aladdin but quickly realized that she is a little young for that movie. However it enticed tRoy so much that as I write this he is watching the first part that he missed, and that is on his insistence since I wanted to just pick up where we left off. Boys! *insert eye roll here*

I’m just one week away from racing the bike and run legs of Mt Taylor with Coach Ilg. Today I ran stadium repeats and a track workout. The stadium repeats made me feel dizzy and made my legs shake. I don’t remember that happening in the past…I’m getting so soft. Ah well, tis the way things are! I may be soft, but I can be woken up every 30-45 minutes all night long to breastfeed a crying and sick baby and not completely fall apart at the seams. So I guess I’m just tough and soft in different ways than I used to be!

One Year Later…

January 26th, 2010

One year ago I posted a short mention that the High Altitude Training Center was closing. Here we are one year later and things have gone from bad to worse for the running community of Flagstaff, specifically, and the entire community of Flagstaff, in a more general sense. Below is a letter I recently received from Mike Smith, an outstanding runner, running coach, organizer and coach of Altius (a local running club), and all around good guy:

Friends of TEAM ALTIUS,

Greetings from Mike Smith. Most of you I know and have had the pleasure of working with, for those of you who are on our listserve who I have not met, I am one of the coaches of TEAM ALTIUS and have been operating it since we began with the Center for High Altitude Training in December, 2006. We’ve built a running club that I am very proud of and has been a tremendous asset to those that have participated. The name of the game is community, and if anything ALTIUS was a place for people to come together to share in their enjoyment of running. Thank you for your interest in our club.

Today was the day when you were to receive an email (sadly, already written, currently saved in my drafts folder) announcing the start of our 2010, coming together after a hiatus, with new and exciting changes, new offerings, renewed spirit, making way for an even better running club. Since December we have been working on meeting the insurance requirements issued by NAU Risk Management to allow access to the 300m indoor track housed in the Skydome. This facility is crucial for not only TEAM ALTIUS, but in an equally urgent cause, the access needed by the elite athletes that call Flagstaff home. After being very optimistic about meeting these incredibly difficult requirements, the underwriters from our outside provider have denied our certificate: access to the Skydome is not available for runners.
This means TEAM ALTIUS continues it’s indefinite hold on practices, and this means that our local elites are denied entry and use of a facility. On a large level, I personally believe that our proud claim, that I was once proud to make of Flagstaff being the best place on earth to run, is not true.
Consider the following:
-We proudly claim that our city is home to handfuls of Olympians and aspiring Olympians, yet these people have to sneak into facilities and hop fences to high school tracks?
-We claim a hospitable devotion to struggling athletes and a community behind them and their cause, but we SHUT DOWN, without a fight, the the US Olympic Training Site, one of only ten in the United States?
-When we speak of running in Flagstaff we use the word “community”, but our local running club is shut out of a facility that sits empty otherwise?
-Did you know that our city has three BRAND NEW high school tracks in Flagstaff, as well as one of the only indoor 300m tracks in the western United States, yet NOT ONE of these tracks are available to runners in this community? Imagine 4 swimming pools in Flagstaff and Michael Phelps having to sneak into them because he wasn’t allowed. And then imagine us at the same time saying with a straight face “Flagstaff, AZ: home of Michael Phelps!”

These things bother me because we CAN be as great as we say we want to be. I have listened to our city, the university, our community leaders, and our businesses talk about the economical impact (millions), and community support behind fostering the kind of environment which they claim to foster. Some of these people have the ability to greatly affect these matters. When it comes to the progress, there is much talk and little walk. Personally, those of us that are in this for the runners keep pressing on but days like today come and I want to tell athletes to go somewhere else! Go somewhere where you are welcomes and supported. I want to tell my running club what they really represent when they proudly say “Flagstaff, AZ” as their hometown.

We are exactly one year since the closure of the Center for High Altitude Training. I hope people are now understanding the crucial need filled by that operation and those that devoted themselves to it. In this time since it’s closure, I have encouraged people to play nice, follow the rules, wait and see, and always have hope. However, these methods are not working. Action is required, and I propose that the time has come to make noise. Based on what I have seen in the past 365 days, the fight won’t be a short one, and I don’t think we’ll get answers we like, but that doesn’t mean we should not fight.

Alert the press. Write a letter. Email John.Haeger@nau.edu every single day until you get a response. Forward this email to anyone and everyone. If you don’t like this, DO SOMETHING about it and don’t stop when they tell you to stop. Don’t be quiet when they tell you to be quiet.

To those of you who have been disappointed by the pause of your running club, I offer my sincere apology. TEAM ALTIUS is my love, I believe in it greatly and refuse to let it die. Riding this rollercoaster, much of which occurs behind the scenes, takes its toll. We’ve done our best to survive the rough waters since the closure of the Center and I just ask that you hang on a little longer, we will get there.

Thank you for your patience and support.

Mike Smith

Christmas Day in the Woods and Farts are Funny

January 5th, 2010

We honored the Winter Solstice in many ways this year, then on Christmas Day we continued to celebrate this special time of year by skiing out to spend the night at the Nature Conservancy cabin with 5 other friends. It is unoccupied in the winter, has no plumbing/water (but the composting toilet is nicer than our bathroom at home), has some solar electric, gas stove/oven in this huge kitchen, a wood burning stove in the main part of the cabin, and gas wall heaters in the two bedrooms. We were stoked! I carried McKenna on my back while Troy carried a 40 pound pack of gear and food. Blair cooked up a duck and we all contributed other dishes to the fabulous meal. I got in 3 ski runs up and down Fern Mountain, and McKenna peacefully slept through her first snowboarding run with Troy down Fern Mtn. She also slept most of the ski in and skin out. The girl seems to find skiing to be more peaceful than exhilarating. It was an awesome way to spend the holiday.

McKenna already knows that farts are funny. Whenever she hears herself or someone else fart, she pauses, then goes, “Heh heh,” and smiles. She even did that half asleep the other night.

She also just went through a huge language explosion. She now has about 25 words. Her little helium voice cracks us up.

I can see the light at the end of the teething tunnel! Really she is down to two canines that haven’t made appearances yet. Everything else (oh, besides her 2-year molars, but I’m hoping those are a ways away still) has at least broken through if not come fully in. Get ready to party!

Troy and I have both been getting in some fun skin-and-ski days. My mountain bikes are pretty much just getting lack-of-use flats hanging on the wall, but it is winter after all. Might as well enjoy the snow while it is here, right? I am mentally preparing myself to suffer greatly at the Mt Taylor Winter Quadrathlon where this year I will be on a pairs team with Steve Ilg. I’ll do the bike and run portions, he’ll tackle the ski and snowshoe portions. I personally witnessed Steve careening down Snowbowl the other day on his skate skis. He is the only person I know crazy enough to try that. Woohoo!